Bella

Don't name your children after Twilight characters. SERIOUSLY!

No Swimming

What's with this breakfast nonsense?
And no you
don't look good in that? I thought
that maybe
I looked nice today.

Forever

Did you know I thought we'd
be together forever. Not
for the moment. I never loved you, but
I thought that you were it.
I found someone who might
care about me just a little. When

forever ended I wasn't
heart broken. I didn't even
need to move on. I just went back
to square one. Do not collect
two hundred dollars. And then I thought
here's the one. Love

at first sight. The real kind.
Just like in the movies. I
fell for you over a twisted game
of croquet. You fell for me
too? I knew we'd be together

forever. Really. I picked you
and you picked me too. One, two
summers of young love. Beautiful without
argument. I expected us to live
together and never fall apart. But

then you came along, and I had to
explore something new. College makes you
do that, you know. Try new things. Except
I had an old thing that was perfect. Not
really so perfect. Ten months
and I think two days of nothing led to

something that I should not have wanted. I never
made it back to GO because I
would be that girl to wait while you
were gone, and you would let me. We would
be together forever. Even through wars, not
just of our own. I should have known that I

was crazy to think that it would ever work
between us. (Oh isn't it funny where they come
up?) And somehow, from the other couch I managed
to convince myself that it would work. A night
on the porch made me realize that

forever wasn't coming. Ever. And so I lived with
you. Funny how that works, isn't it? I waited for
something to come along and now you're in my
way. I thought that I could say no
at first, but here you are. Sometimes, I

don't know how this happened. I
don't know how you're still around. They
say that I live for affection and I want
my scripted ending. Forever. I don't think
that this dance will lead there. Will it? Or

am I just here because I need to
have something to hold on to? You keep
me grounded while the world goes by. I
don't understand. If this is forever, shouldn't
you make me spin like the others?

Tequila Sunrise

How did I become
Advice Girl?
What could I possibly know?
I can't help;
I don't have the answers
to your problems.
I have my own and why
can't I say no?
These long distance calls
asking for help, they have me
thinking. Not about answers
to your silly question. No,
I wonder why can we only talk
when you're five states away?

No. I can't help you today,
figure it out for yourself.
I'm sure you can handle it,
Have a nice day?

What's Left

It's like, it's like, it's like WOW?

Happy Birthday

I remember sneaking out to look for you
hiding amidst the volumes of english
so foreign to our wide eyes
My heart would beat faster
as we wandered through the shelves
past the prose into the more
educational tomes.
Was ist das?
Ich weiß nicht.
I blush as we slip out through the autumn
like in the movies
without the scenic view
Anticipation. Words exchanged?
We climb in as I wait for the ending
that celluloid promises.
Was ist das?
Mir geht es gut.
I'm fine.
Mir geht es gut.

Das macht nichts.
Does it?
What am I thinking?
Es ist mir egal, I tell myself
I don't mind.
I'm growing up.
I'm seventeen today.
-Is this okay?
(Nein)
(Nein)
(Nein)
-You started it.
I don't know what to do.
"Es geht."
-What?
"I'm okay."
I should be going. You should be going.
(You should get out of the car).
Everything shakes, colors are somehow
off.
-Don't worry. This won't change anything.
Everything's changed.
-I'll see you tomorrow
Everything's changed.
-Oh, and Happy Birthday.

carpe diem

You have to believe that someday you'll meet someone special.
It's too late;
Wake up.